1. |
Daughter
02:25
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fapped the first time since u broke my heart
fuck i need some wine & some time apart
& i’m probably not fine if i’m crying in your arms
just got back from the stupid trip
got drunk, bought porn, don’t wanna talk about it
but i guess i can’t sink any lower than i did
It’s rolling, it’s rolling
& I can’t control it
it’s working, let’s work it
let’s work it on out!
I feel this flame that no one knows
& when it got real dark i burned some old clothes
i turned something into nothing, but that’s just how life goes
Well that’s just screaming “i was here”
and I’m leaning on the mantra “just one more year”
but i hope i find my way out of the woods because the dawn is near
SO COME AND TAKE MY HAND
AND LEAD ME TO THE SLAUGHTER
I’M NOT A PERFECT MAN
I’LL BE A PERFECT DAUGHTER
SOME COME AND TAKE MY HAND
I'LL WALK ON BOILING WATER
I'M NOT A PERFECT MAN
I'LL BE A PERFECT DAUGHTER
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2. |
Let's Rob a Bank
02:58
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I drank the fly in my whiskey
Then sucked the rim of my cup
No one back home’s gonna miss me
Just all the space I’ve taken up
I made big plans that got broken
At least I could let down my guard
Sometimes it feels like I am choking
This year has been so hard
I’ve been wrong before
For twenty years or more
So let’s throw it away
Just like recruiters do to my resumé
GIN KEEPS ME WARM
U KEEP ME SAFE
C’MON LETS GO
LETS ROB A BANK
I FEEL BRAND NEW
I FEEL AWAKE
YOU FEEL IT TOO
SO LET’S ROB A BANK
You couldn’t curb your own aggression
Or do a single thing but cry
Chat-logged museum of depression
I’m taking over you can die
I’ll be wrong again
For a year or ten
So let’s give it away
Just like Andrew Bird & his Line 6 Delay
GIN KEEPS ME WARM
U KEEP ME SAFE
C’MON LETS GO
NO GOD TO THANK
I FEEL BRAND NEW
I FEEL AWAKE
YOU FEEL IT TOO
SO LET’S ROB A BANK
Baby, you lift me up when I’m feeling down
And I start to fly when we dance around
I can’t help my hopeless yearning
let it burn, let it burn, let it burn — I want to keep that fire burning
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3. |
Nervous as a Lifestyle
02:24
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Come on bug, let's dive into the ocean
That's how I'm livin'
Nervous as a lifestyle
Come on bug, let's sing or sink or something
That's where we fit in
Nervous as a lifestyle
Come on bug, you are my only constant
We're queer and strange
& they don't fuckin’ buy it
We might just explode and leave a crater
Come on bug let's make a bit of danger
Will you take my hand
Hold it in your own
Give me all your strength
When I'm alone
Will you pet my head
Stoke me when I'm stoned
Give it to me straight
’Til we're fuckin' old
Every single stare
Every single night
They can all fuck off
We are alright
No one’s gonna care
Take it all away
Maybe be reborn
In another age
Come on bug, our life is like the ocean
Lets go swimmin’
Nervous as a lifestyle
Come on bug, I'm so close to explodin'
It's how we're livin'
Nervous as a lifestyle
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4. |
Ember
02:37
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Oh!
I don’t think that I can wait ’til December
My heart is an ember
And you are the flame!
Oh!
I don’t think that we can weather the weather
But whether it’s better
Or whether it’s lame
I will be by your side pretending I
Am a romantic ghost or Russian spy
Finding out that there’s no kind of love that’s free
Stay tuned for our latest debauchery
Oh!
I don’t think that I can wait ’til December
I’ll always remember
Your smell and your name
Oh!
I don’t think that hearts are meant to be broken
But mem’ries are tokens
Of things that remain
Oh!
I don’t think that I’ve become a pretender
But maybe I’ll send her
A token of pain
You have been by my side pretending I
Was your docile dog or parasite?
Frequent flip flops made me wanna flee
Tune in for the sounds of my misery
Oh!
I don’t think that I can wait ’til December
Let’s go on a bender
and bend ’til we break
Oh,
I don’t think that I can go one more lone year
So throw me a bone here
And vary my days
Oh,
Maybe this is why my dreams have been carried
By sweet lies that I’ve buried
Far under my gaze
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5. |
(Interlude)
00:47
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6. |
Julian
04:05
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Julian
You’re forcing dreams into my reality
I gotta figure out what’s wrong with me
But I can’t trust myself at all
Julian
My heart is pounding and my body’s weak
You’re like a nightmare waking me from sleep
I guess it’s time to take the fall
Julian
You took a dive into the deepest end
Keep a tally ‘cause you’re losing friends
And you’re only losing more
Julian
Maybe you’re perfect on the inside
That would explain all of the years you cried
But maybe you should first be sure
Julian
All the stupid stubble on my face
two hundred thirty pounds of fucking waste
Worst palette I could work with—what a start
Julian
You gotta treat your body with some care
You gotta stop sad-cutting off your hair
You’ve made this so damn hard
Julian
Break me down, rebuild me as you please
I wanna change, I’m begging for release
And I don’t think I can do it all alone
Julian
What’s the worst thing I could do?
Waste a year or waste a whole life through?
How many memories must I disown?
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7. |
This Fiction
02:05
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I used to drink whiskey on the rocks
Now I search for treasures under the docks
I used to crash parties or hold my own
Now the fun has vanished and I’m all alone
Well I hope we see some change
‘Cause the world is feeling pain
This fiction is driving me insane
I used to hair trigger & get real mad
I was drunk & dang’rous & it was sad,sad,sad
I used to treat fitness like the anti-fun
What am I gonna witness? Will I have to PUNCH THEN RUN?
Well I hope we start some change
We are home to something strange
This fiction is driving me insane
There’s a wave a-comin from the harbor
& I think we’re gonna drown
Ev’rything is moving much too fast
We gotta outrun the crowd
LET YOUR BODY BREAK DOWN
Used to rock a promise, used to be a drunk
But my rock got broken & I became a punk
I used to march briskly so the walk would end
Now I shut up & listen & I march with friends
Well I hope we start some change
We been clawed & cuffed & chained
This fiction is driving me insane
Some friction is what we need to bring
This fiction is driving me insane
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8. |
The Worry
02:40
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Can’t U see that I’m worried about U?
It’s true…
I bide my time saying prayers
I doubt’ll come true
It’s like…
Will it? Won’t it?
Will it? Won’t it?
Will it? Won’t it?
I could forget…
Will it? Won’t it?
Will it? Won’t it?
Will it? Won’t it?
Now I’ve had it!
When you snooze the alarm, oh my heart it aches
When you grab my arm, don’t know when I’ll wake
Will you? Won’t you?
Will you? Won’t you?
Will you? Won’t you?
What can I do?
Will you? Won’t you?
Will you? Won’t you?
Will you? Won’t you?
YOU HELD DOWN MY HANDS
IT FELT LIKE A DANCE
I WANTED TO DIE
TO GET A BETTER LIFE
MY NECK AND YOUR HANDS
THE DEATH OF ROMANCE
I WANTED TO CRY
DO YOU KNOW WHAT LOVING/HURTING FEELS LIKE?
Can’t U see that I’m worried about U?
It’s true…
All these lies, no surprise
I doubt you’ll come through
It’s like…
Will they? Won’t they?
Will they? Won’t they?
Will they? Won’t they?
Is this hair grey?
Will they? Won’t they?
Will they? Won’t they?
Will they? Won’t they?
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9. |
The Bad Times
02:38
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Long trip, absinthe drips from my eyes
Bad news so for two months I go dry
Isn’t it the strangest thing? To lose and loosen your mind
Shake the pain, hop a different train
I’ll swallow my pride to survive
Did u like the bad times when they broke u?
Where’s the place in your mind that they spoke to?
Promise you’re finding your new part/Tell me you’re fine, we could restart
Oh u can say it from the heart
Say, say it from the heart
One shot gets harder every year
Try to dance, did they glance at my tears?
Do u hear that echoing? Are my words still clear?
No more ‘them’ just the bpm.
I blink and I’m gone but I’m here
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10. |
The Ashes
02:32
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We return to the ashes
Sleep on old broken mattresses
Same old holes, custom patches
We return to the ashes
& Can’t U see?
We’re living in a nightmare
But we’ve got our dreams
This ain’t no debate club
U R Killing Me
Champagne, peanut butter,
Vitamins & weed
We’re headed 4 the streets
A siren’s song
Screaming down the streets
We’re hiding for how long?
Bats & masks to beat & breathe
When they throw bombs
Sewer maps & booby traps
when things go wrong
Well we’ll be moving on
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11. |
The End of the Line
02:55
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You’re a loner & you’re vain
Your whole life has been the same
You’re running out of time (x2)
I am sick & sad & gay
At least my hair looks rad today
I’m going for a ride
You’re running out of time
Golden Girls & general tso’s
Makes a home of cheap motels
When you’re driving coast to coast
You’re bound to meet some ghosts
Time to find out if you’ve changed
My whole life has been so strange
I’m stepping up this time and then
I’m gonna be fine and then I’ll
Take it to the end of the line (x3)
Keep moving
Something’s bound to break
Take it to the end of the line (x3)
We’re losing
It may seem hateful
I’ve gotta reach the end of the line
I’m a loner & I’m vain
We have both turned out the same
You changed my fucking life
I’ll take yours tonight
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12. |
Maybe I'm Crying
02:27
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Maybe I’m crying, maybe I’m crying, maybe I’m crying
It’s too late to find the source
And I can’t go home anymore
My old self is dying, my old self is dying, oh bug am I dying?
Sometimes I don’t get the world
And I’m just another girl
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13. |
The Same [Bonus Track]
05:18
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Nothing in this world is free
No one’s gonna take your TV
No one’s gonna care how you feel
Can’t trust that we’ll get a good deal
Can’t hope ‘cause we’re all getting sick
Can’t breathe ‘cause the air’s getting thick
Can’t sell the things no one needs
No one’s gonna take your TV
Gonna take the time
Gonna make you mine
Oh I got in close
Went in for the touch
I wanted know you
But I was too much
Then you went and changed
And I took the blame
Oh isn’t it strange?
How I’m still the same
Nobody cares how you feel
No one on Twitter seems real
No force of evil can’t win
We all stress scratch at our skin
We all (we ALL) have to sleep
We all (we ALL) have those dreams
Hope no one counts your mistakes
We all have sins we must shake
Someday I’ll finally find god
Or maybe they will find me
Someday a crowd will applaud
Someday my sweat won’t be cheap
Isn’t it strange how everyone leaves you behind?
You’re starting to think they’re probably right
Isn’t it strange the way you make crushes cry?
You’re starting to think
You’re probably right
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14. |
Dysphoria [Bonus Track]
03:49
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I shot my radio
& I swear it bled
Lost the map way too long ago
Not sure what it said
No progress
Second guess
Redraw the map
Self-doubtful
of your goal
All steps back, all steps
Hope is a friend of mine
She is my gas
The tank is low, the price is high
I'm out of cash
Self on hold
Getting old
Or it feels that way
You never get better
you never change, you never change
Passings hard livings even harder
Curse your chinbones & your hair
Break the mirror & replace the starter
Peel out fast, far out of there
Restarting
Your heart in
This is the time
Cept for the
Dysphoria
That breaks the mind, breaks the mind
Kill stress feeds
& Repeat
The wake up call
Dont feel down
Its real now
Step by step
Trip by fall
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15. |
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I take my first step into the real world
Where ev’ry last breath is from a new girl
And ev’ry word said speaks hesitation
A brand new body — a soul vacation
And I don’t care why
When I see the news & it makes me cry
I’m fine
At least I’m trying
And I still can walk
Even when the neighbors talk and talk
I’m shocked
That I still walk
Wait for me on the other side
Won’t be long before I’ve died
(It’s really not gonna take too long)
Can’t wait for life to pass me by
I’ll be gone, we all know why
(It’s really not gonna take too long)
You crossed the east coast
Just to spite an age
You found a better home
With a lower wage
You can plan your life
With endless talking
One day you wake up
The future’s knocking
Twitter, patreon
Who will claim my URLs when I am gone
And write my songs?
Now we’re hanging on
Never thought life would become a marathon
I don’t do cons
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