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DOLLAR STORE (INTRO)
01:16
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Hard cider, drink it at a stop light
I wanna own the night just like the rich kids do
I’m craving fun
Don’t wanna be the one who hides, afraid to go cut loose
The streets clear of college kids drunk on cheap beer
I wish I was them
But that won’t come true.
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DOLLAR STORE
04:18
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I see the sun hit the houses on the hilltops
But it’s still dark where I’m walking to
Spent too many nights sleeping in my car
Might not get far but I’ll get through
Hard cider, drink it at a stop light
I wanna own this night just like the rich kids do
Can’t beat the line so we take our time
And we slip away up to the roof
Sit under lights from bars
And we pretend they’re stars
But I won’t make a wish—No I’ll wish on you
I see a cutie working at the dollar store
They seem real high & I wanna get stoned
We both ditch working for the afternoon
I get high then low but hey I’m not alone
Can’t stand the sun because it’s too bright
I wanna own the night just like the rich kids do
I’m craving fun, don’t wanna be the one
Who hides, too afraid to go cut loose
The streets clear
Of college kids drunk on cheap beer
I wish I was them but it won’t come true
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3. |
WE SMOKE STEMS
03:19
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We, we smoke stems
And we had all the time in the world to be wild & free
& We’re full blown femmes
And we know how to gab with girls while shaking off the police
Do both simultaneously
Religious feminology
I bat my eyes
And then I blink and miss a day, a week, or I don’t know
Pour me more wine
Today’s the kind of day that makes me hate tomorrow
Such frequent sorrow
Beg, steal, and borrow
I’m gonna call you when I’ve made it
I’m gonna let you kiss me at the door
Last year my heart was freaky faded
This year I’m stronger than I’ve ever been before
Now help me wipe the blood off the floor
We’ll live in synchronicity
Embrace our eccentricities
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This little strip full of prodigal shops
Tear down the mall build another on top
Buses of college kids
Boozed up & with dough to spend
50 year family shops turning into vapor dens
How do you know when the future’s arrived?
When they take our doctors how will we survive?
Anger ball—strangle it
Buy a drone and bury it
How heavy’s the load and how long must we carry it?
Sober but anxious to prep for the storm
Cops closed that place where the queer kids perform
Rent goes up, isolate
Neighborhood dissociate
Brace yourself look to the clouds for the sun to break
Angel of internet, Google is God
They bought a whole neighborhood for a song
Own the news, stoke the hate
Create the jobs then automate
Pray to the grocer who sold us the bread we ate
I’ll move to Florida, take life as it goes
Vote in a swing state, and quit playing shows
Fall asleep on the beach
Love the moon and hate the heat
Call all my reps twice a week not to murder me
Maybe someday when our tide finally comes
We’ll be so strong we don’t mess nothin’ up
Check the mirror just in case
Force yourself to love your face
Plastic bags under your eyes start to be replaced
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5. |
QUEEN UNICORN REJECT
04:56
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So say what you want if you really got a thought that you’re offering
Don’t say I’m your everything
Don’t lie like its anything
And if you’re in a dark spot and your heart is red hot full and fluttering
Don’t say I’m your everything
Don’t lie like its anything
It’s cold, cold, cold water: no more daughters no more sons
I could be your martyr or so could all the other ones
Oh…
Do you wanna cross the ocean with me?
Do you wanna shake and shiver out at sea?
Do you wanna be a drunken sunken twenty-something?
You took my hand and then you swept me away
Got me baked and then TF’d me into prey
Can’t say that I am terrified of anything
Throw out your old self, pray for good health (not for some)
Cast off your demons, we’re all screaming atoms
Do you wanna cross the ocean with me?
Do you wanna give yourself away for free?
Do you wanna be a drunken sunken twenty-something?
You took my hand and then you swept me away
Lay me down beneath the sand where I’ll decay
Can’t say that I am terrified of anything
I’ll just say that I am terrified of losing you
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There’s a broken limo in the parking lot
And there’s dents and rust and the holes say its been shot
And with the way the neon sunshine fades the view
You’d think this place closed in 1982
And if I ever get out of Florida, I’m coming back for you
There’s a swamp reclaiming all our stolen land
It’s making its way for our Wifi and the van
No dust settles, no new flowers grow
This pretty pink hotel has got to close
And If I ever get out of Florida, I’m going home
And no one smiles at the Cuban restaurant
When I hold your hand, we get weird looks
I hope we’re the last fags these old fuckers’ll ever see
As they sink into their bogged tombs alone
There’s a place on the beach with eight dollar bud lite limes
I drain my bank account as I hope to die
And when I’m good and drunk I hit the sand
Some fountain of youth, some promised land
And if I ever get out of Florida sunburnt and tanned
I’ll carry you home if I can still stand
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8. |
MY FAMILIAR
06:12
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When my baby went to work today I pretended that she left me for good
I don’t even know why I did it
I just wanted to feel that loss
To know if I could take it
‘Cause no matter how good it’s going I know that inevitably
Invariably
And ineffably
I will fuck this up
I jilled off, took my girl pills and just sat in the car watching the birds
They’re coming or they’re going, I don’t know
I never kept good track of time
I just sat there and daydreamed for a while, wishing that was me, flying somewhere
With a purpose
No, an instinct
Not something pure but just
Something I could understand
I’d be drummin’ on the trees
Buzzing’ with the bees
Eatin’ sap
Not the crap that I’ve come to need
I would never speak a word
Sing & then be heard
Not a tweet
Just a beak
Just another bird—my familiar
I drove to our diner and sat at our booth and it felt empty without her
The waitress comes over and she asks “oh where’s your little girlfriend I always love seeing you two”
I feel dirty—damaged—no I feel naughty
Eating a fucking cheeseburger at 9 am all alone
Is this what it’ll feel like when things finally go south for us?
A plane passes overhead & it startles the birds
I watch them fly away
I just watch them fly away
My baby comes home and i tell her oh god i missed you and she says “i missed you too bug”
She asks if i’m okay
I tell her maybe it’s the weather, maybe it’s these hormones but
I’m not quite feeling like myself
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The fire alarm turned out to be a mighty good thing
You found me bound for harm inside the stairwell waiting
Waiting
You picked me up, you said "you wanna get some breakfast?"
I told you over waffles that I was waiting
Waiting
For my heart
to stop
beating.
I don't manic pixie dream and
I don't think it's no ones job to save me
But sometimes you just have some breakfast
Sometimes going out's a form of bravery
Oh when my heart stops beating
Will I cry or lean in to die?
Somehow the world keeps turning
Where's my fire burning inside?
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Broke ev’ry glass that I had last night
Wanted to pass but I can’t get it right
Wanted to cry but I just couldn’t care
Broke down and wrote down a text of despair
And there’s gotta be some good change in the air
Can’t take excuses that reframe your mess
(To tell you the truth, I’ve been ghosted for less)
So now I’m just walking the other direction
I can’t live with folx who stockholm their affection
& I just want a place I can make a connection!
Now everyone is scared
You’re my only one whose there
My newsfeed’s constant fuzz
And spiro fucked my buzz
And no one wants us to be seen
Not been sober since 19
So we’ll call, call, call some more
Our bed’s now on the floor
Just one big break tonight
It just might save our life
And as we face this world alone
I’ll always drive you home
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11. |
(OUTRO)
01:14
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12. |
COVER ME [Bonus Track]
02:46
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let me move in close and see the wound
u can’t fix this all one afternoon
just let go
we’ll take it slow
& split our roles to help us grow
maybe we can learn a thing or two
u and me
we can be
anything
if we believe
make a wish
have a dream
all i ask
is cover me
it’s working now
love the way u furrow up yr brow
we’re getting strong in different ways
its hard existing ev’ry day
can u hold the front, i’m passing out
when we get out of this storm
we’ll have reached out final forms
and we’ll make it cuz
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13. |
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It’s cold, cold, cold water: no more daughters no more sons
I could be your martyr or so could all the other ones
Oh…
Do you wanna cross the ocean with me?
Do you wanna shake and shiver out at sea?
Do you wanna be a drunken sunken twenty-something?
You took my hand and then you swept me away
Got me baked and then TF’d me into prey
Can’t say that I am terrified of anything
Throw out your old self, pray for good health (not for some)
Cast off your demons, we’re all screaming atoms
Do you wanna cross the ocean with me?
Do you wanna give yourself away for free?
Do you wanna be a drunken sunken twenty-something?
You took my hand and then you swept me away
Lay me down beneath the sand where I’ll decay
Can’t say that I am terrified of anything
I’ll just say that I am terrified of losing you
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14. |
ALTARS [Bonus Track]
03:00
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Right now i feel like my skins on fire
Like i radiate a glow
That there’s no sense in taking me higher
I know I’m a liability
& if you try to rep me
You’ll be cursed with nonstop drama
Maybe its the mental health days
Or the queer tirades
Or the ways that I pull from trauma
So just listen instead
‘Cause the queer arts better once the loud girl’s dead
do u wanna see me cry after the show
do u wanna see the way my friendships go
just know that i am terrified...usually
now i havent left the house in 7 days
now i got my friends DMing “U ok?”
Can’t even find an answer we agree to speak
Do u wanna see my cry after the show
Do u wanna feel my heatspace glow & grow
Just know that i’m too terrified to keep receipts
now i havent left the house in 20 days
now our world is getting hotter & i pray
i dont wanna b the burden that breaks u from me
My family wants to think their child died
That I'm an infanticidal
Freak of nature
That I ain't sure
That I been brain washed
Got lost
Osh Kosh B'GOD DAMN
I've just grown a little bit
Tried on a new life
Now the old one doesn't fit
Cut out fake friends
Who kept posting old pics
Work place break downs
I prob'ly shoulda quit
A headspace playground
“YR IT, YR IT!”
Yr at the altar
God calls u on yr shit
So u grab onto the shards
& u start to split
Then I became the alter personality
When ev'rything went black on me
Now I don't front or hang around
& If I seem distant
Count the minutes
Count the months
Since u shoulda said the god damn pronouns
do u wanna see me cry after the show
do u wanna see the way my friendships go
just know that i am terrified...usually
now i havent left the house in 7 days
now i got my friends DMing “U ok?”
Can’t really find an answer we agree to speak
Do u wanna see my cry after the show
Do u wanna feel my heatspace glow & grow
Just know that i’m too terrified to keep receipts
now i havent left the house in 20 days
now i think i feel the ending & i pray
i dont wanna b the burden that breaks u from me
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15. |
D.I.T. [Bonus Track]
04:49
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God might be watching so act your best
And if they’re not then we can’t rest
I’m drinking right from the tap
Even though its bad
Real superstars? They do it together
No matter where you are you can do it together
Fight for the changes and fight through the weather
Don’t be a stranger, let’s do it together
Remember our fallout? Time sure flies
I wrote a callout but then thought twice
I wake up to birds at night
With all of their might
They still sing without light
We might be nothing
But I think we’re something
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