Right now i feel like my skins on fire
Like i radiate a glow
That there’s no sense in taking me higher

I know I’m a liability
& if you try to rep me
You’ll be cursed with nonstop drama

Maybe its the mental health days
Or the queer tirades
Or the ways that I pull from trauma

So just listen instead
‘Cause the queer arts better once the loud girl’s dead

do u wanna see me cry after the show
do u wanna see the way my friendships go
just know that i am terrified...usually
    
now i havent left the house in 7 days
now i got my friends DMing “U ok?”
Can’t even find an answer we agree to speak

Do u wanna see my cry after the show
Do u wanna feel my heatspace glow & grow
Just know that i’m too terrified to keep receipts

now i havent left the house in 20 days
now our world is getting hotter & i pray
i dont wanna b the burden that breaks u from me


My family wants to think their child died
That I'm an infanticidal
Freak of nature
That I ain't sure
That I been brain washed
Got lost
Osh Kosh B'GOD DAMN
I've just grown a little bit
Tried on a new life
Now the old one doesn't fit
Cut out fake friends
Who kept posting old pics
Work place break downs
I prob'ly shoulda quit
A headspace playground
“YR IT, YR IT!”
Yr at the altar
God calls u on yr shit
So u grab onto the shards
& u start to split
Then I became the alter personality
When ev'rything went black on me
Now I don't front or hang around
& If I seem distant
Count the minutes
Count the months
Since u shoulda said the god damn pronouns   

do u wanna see me cry after the show
do u wanna see the way my friendships go
just know that i am terrified...usually 
    
now i havent left the house in 7 days
now i got my friends DMing “U ok?”
Can’t really find an answer we agree to speak

Do u wanna see my cry after the show
Do u wanna feel my heatspace glow & grow
Just know that i’m too terrified to keep receipts

now i havent left the house in 20 days
now i think i feel the ending & i pray
i dont wanna b the burden that breaks u from me